The wrangle has ended.

My childhood friend and I are now friends.
But there are things I've learned after that wrangle. That is, not to trust people easily until they have proven their trustworthiness. There's a thought which I've heard in a local radio station which states, "mag-ingat sa taong hindi mo kilala, lalo nah sa taong KILALA MO NAH."

Now, we're not that close anymore. The last time I texted her was when i greeted her on her birthday. I don't hate her, it's just that I'm avoiding her now 'cause I don't feel like being friends with her anymore.

I mean, hello? After all the realizations and everything, is it still worthy to be friends with her? So much for that.

Anyways, I'm so over with that incident. I'm now trying to enjoy my college life.

So that's all I have for now. Toodles.

I Want To Grow Up.

Growing old is mandatory while growing up is optional.

I know I can't force someone to grow up emotionally and mentally just to sympathize with me to be a so-called-matured-lass.

I mean, I want to be matured enough to handle things on my own, to accept things and be able to adapt to it especially in terms of the society's norms and the nature of every individual I will encounter.

But how can I do it if I'm surrounded by people who won't let go of their little planet and step into the reality of this cruel world?

I'm talking about my childhood friend.

She thinks she knows everything about life.
But the truth is, she doesn't. She won't even accept how the people around her change so rapidly (especially regarding on boys). Yea, about having boyfriends?(She is soOo against that.) But it's not just all about boys, about secrets, girl talks and other stuff. I think she's too immature to handle things like that.

Really, she treats me as her bestfriend and vice-versa. But I've realized that it's worthless to call her my bestfriend when I can't open serious things to her.

We just call ourselves BESTFRIENDS when we're happy. I feel useful to her when she needs someone to talk to, someone to be her laughing buddy and someone to treat her when she's craving for some food.

I'm not counting the money I spent on you nor am I bragging about what I did for you. It's just that for one honest statement that I said, you ruined the moment and acted like you were the victim. It's not that I did something brutal to you because I didn't.

You know me better than others. I fondly believe in the saying DO UNTO OTHERS AS YOU WANT OTHERS TO DO UNTO YOU. I am not a mean person unless you show me your bad side. But I can be your nightmare when I get evilish. "Masama akong magalit at lalong masama akong kalabanin." You know what I can do when I'm all about revenge.

I don't know how and when this wrangle would end, but for now, we have to sober up first before deciding to face each other. 'Cause I don't want to be pretentious or act like an angel to please you.

Well I hope you would learn your own lesson and hope that you would respect my own outlook in life even if you really can't accept it. Like what I said, we're not precisely the same. We have differences.

I want to be me. I want to grow up in my own way. In the way where there is no one like you clouding up my mind.

Wish me luck. I wish you luck too. Toodles.

Tangang Kolehiyala.

I can't wait to have my first allowance for my dress and for my daily expenses as a college student. Yebah! I'm gonna buy new clothes since my school has no official school uniform(soOo irritating). Oh well, look at the bright side, I'm gonna have tons of clothes. Hurray. But my sister will borrow some for sure.

Gosh!
I'm gonna be a 'tangang kolehiyala' starting this monday. I don't know where to go first and who's gonna guide me. *sigh* I have to be independent 'cause I must not trust any of them. Evil monsters.

Lucky to have Kuya anjun's presence there(my sister's beau). He's an irregular student and I'm hoping that we will be classmates with at least five subjects. *lol

But I guess I have to do it on my own way. toodles.

Leaving my High School Life.

High School days are over. Bonding with your high school friends will just happen occasionally. Now, I'm gonna face the next level of my education--
the college life. New faces, new ambiance, and new styles of clothing. *lol.

My expectations? Well, a bored feeling that will engulf me for the whole semester. Meeting loads of people who possess different characters beyond my expectations.(like two-faced bitches, backstabbers and perverted jerks.)
And facing problems which enable me to mature.

My sister told me NOT TO TRUST ANYONE IN COLLEGE UNTIL AFTER THEY HAVE PROVEN THEIR TRUSTWORTHINESS.

I guess I have to find out for myself. toodles.